Day 118 – What to say?
I’ve been in this blogging rut where I feel like I’m back to repeating things over and over again. I know I started this blog for myself and I shouldn’t worry if people are reading it/what they think of it. At the same time, I do worry. There are so many good weight loss, diet, fitness, and self-improvement blogs out there that I can’t help but think that I could have one that’s just as good–if I could just figure out how. The end result is I tend to stop blogging because I’m comparing myself to them.
After all my posts about “Compete with yourself, not with others” and “Support others, but do what’s right for you” I get caught in the trap of semi-competition with others over blogging.
You know what? I’m going to try to go back to posting every day. But if I don’t have something to say, then I just don’t have anything to say. So maybe instead I’ll just post some motivational pictures without any accompanying text. Or a link dump. Whatever works.
As for myself? Well, on the exercise front July felt like a bust. And so far, August hasn’t started that great either. But just because July and the beginning of August wasn’t so great doesn’t mean that today has to follow the same pattern, nor tomorrow, nor the next day, nor the next….
On the plus side, I’ve maintained weight. I feel like I’ve lost some muscle (not a lot but some), but I don’t feel like I’ve gained much in the way of fat. However, I do think the weight balance from the muscle loss is from retaining water because I haven’t been drinking enough. It’s funny how not having a fresh water filter will turn you off of drinking water.
Some other things I’ve been thinking about in regards to this health journey:
I really need to eat more. And obviously not just empty calories, but I definitely need more.
I do really enjoy exercise, and have to remind myself of that every day. I’m not going to get fit through wishful thinking, though. I actually have to DO it.
I’ve been thinking a lot about where I’ll be in a year. I definitely want to reach my goal weight (or at least, size–I’d rather be a lean and muscular 130 than a weak and unfit 110), and wondered, “What then?” I’ve been toying with the idea of getting a personal trainer certification at that point. I’ve been having this fantasy that I’ve gotten my body to the point where it’s clear I’m not just a case of lucky genetics, but I obviously work out. And that I’m working at a job where I have to tell someone who wants to do something at a certain time that I’ll have to check my schedule because that’s when I go to the gym. Then they ask, “So…what’s your secret?” Then I smile and hand them my card and say, “A lot of work, but it was worth it.” I don’t know if I want to actually train others, but the idea of getting certified is a motivating goal.
Finding a gym. There’s one across the street that seems decent enough, but what I really want in a gym is one that includes a pool. Growing up, I swam competitively on our summer swim league. I wasn’t that great (although I usually did pretty well on the butterfly–but I think that’s because so few would swim that stroke) but I enjoyed it. I just really want to have the option before I actually join a gym and sign any kind of membership contract.
You’ll note that a lot of my thoughts focus on “WHEN I reach my goal” not “IF I reach my goal.” I will do it. And I will do it in a timely fashion. Sure, if I hadn’t borked up July, maybe I’d be 10 pounds closer right now. I’m not worried. The day I stop thinking about it is the day I’ll get worried.
All this said, I need to stop writing and get to my workout. I’ve been making some good food lately and put it in the fridge so I have no excuse to not eat well.
There is no making up for lost time, but there is making the best of the time you have.